::bdae:: / Monday, July 24, 2006
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Changed font. this looks more classy - but common lah. but that doesn't matter. as you all know, i have not been blogging, simply because i don't have time. ohh....and i totally miss out some days of my life but didn't write it down. today's the 24 JULY (the day i pratically died, sheesh), and i'm going WAY back to 15 July.
15 JULY 2006?
Hello. i just came out from LT2 (was it?). aiyah, today there's just nygh dsa test. i mean a whole lot of us were there. i mean us as nyers, gepers. i was kindduf jittery at first because like i SOO wanna get into nygh. (it's programme rocks. and i don't care aobut reputation). but then later, was like toking to jin and chris and sr and bean and janne and bong...so many pple that i forgot about the jitter bugs. and rach is pro in maths so she doesn't need to take math. and hear leevoon's....she doesn't need to take english and chinese....and that's SUPER lucky because you must write like THOUSANDS of things that your hands ached like siao. like composition and comprehension in one paper for 1 hour leh! and i heard that leevoon actually no need to take math, if she asked for exemption. because even those with silver could be exemted from math....some error made by nygh i guess. so when i came out from LT2, my hand was shivering - not from cold, or fright, but because of ache lorhs. then went to vending machine with chris and jin....and went to assemble area and let's see.....had lunch. i was super hungry by that time because, my brain cells needed boost, and i DIDN'T have tt yet. went to holland v to get really good ramen.
if only i could go to nydc. that rocks. and have cheesecake or something *SQUEALSS* and a huge HUMONGOUS glass of E=MC2 (genius drink). that's soda with hershey's dark chocolate sauce + double delight chocolate (chocolate ice-cream, with chocolate chips) plus a whole lot of whipped cream at the top. hee hee. rocks right?! ohh, good desert shops i recommend.
gelare: crepes. wafer ice-cream. ohhh, the ice-cream they serve are superb. (almost everywhere in singapore- plaza singapura, tampines)
sweet secret: good enuf cheesecake - cappucino. chris and i went there to eat b4. oso at plaza singapura.
ben and jerrys: this is totally recommend. serves the bestest ice-cream ever! so chewy and melt in the mouth. eveything's good there... yum! in suntec city.
sweet stuff rawks.
19 JULY 2006
ohh, raffles GAT test today. arhs, was quite okay, managed to finish all, i heard that many gepers in ny could not finish. met claudia (rss) there, i think she saw me but we didn't talk. i belive she's in the same class as dvtwl. sigh. it was basically all patterns, kindduf logic and visualisation. and i personally feel that it is NOT WORTH my precious $50. hahaha. i mean, seriously. i know it's some physciology thing and it must have cost alot, but look, i feel that the standard set by ny was much higher ( no offence) and was cheaper if youn count it for one paper each..
yup. wasn't even tired out after the end of the paper. but my stomach felt bad...like it was churning out all the food i ate for lunch. which was this super yummy rice burger i had at MOS burger ( it rawks too) and a mochi soya cheese bun from sun moulin - i think i ate 2. blearhx.
21 JULY 2006
it's expected, you see. yeah yeah, i got in for the rgs interview and it's this coming friday. i know i'm soo gonna die. cos i haven't certify anything yet and i have not prepared the speech thingy. i feel the jitter bugs coming back liao. arhs, can the experienced ones please enlighten the amateur. boo hoo.
annnd haven't really prepared my portfolio yet lorhs. what is a portfolio anyway? is certificates counted? i think i'm really gonna die.
23 JULY 2006
errhs. i am kindduf angry i guess. HEAR YE, HEAR YE, everybody. please pick up a copy of the sunday times and flipped to the very back page of the main paper. there's this inbox thingy which is letter from readers. haha, readers. our school, for one, was DEFAMED!! it was the bianca thingy and another 4 girls bullying this boy.
so it was like: "there's a premier school near bukit timah...." i mean, it's SO obvious. there's only 4 premier schools in bukit timah: us, rgps, scgs, hpps. i mean, rgps and scgs are GIRL'S school so there's no boys so it left with us and hpps. but we are the OBVIOUS choice. blearhs. and bianca and the rest are not suspended because of the psle. sigh. poor boy.
even angrier becos i missed hsm sing along. anywae, i didn't think i missed much, i guess. got spanked today, aiyah, becos i threw a tantrum because i can't find my oral book. sighs. it was at the very top of the library. wondered who put it there.
feeling the jitters. TMR's the PRELIMS exams. i mean, i know it's just prelims, but there is an expectation you must live up to, right? *brr*
TODAY
rach's soo lucky. she can go on shopping spree ystd lorhs. i mean she bought 5 books for borders which costs about $15-$17 each and got 20% off ( borders got sale mah). and then seh went to watch pirates. TT so rawk. and dad didn't tell me we have PART 1 to pirates. how can someone buy smthing and forget what he bought. omg, pirates. sheesh.
and during the whole day of lesson, i was muttering to myself and speaking in a very soft whisper to freak (kevin lah, who else) as i was getting the jitters. i know, i get it often. somehow, he's feeling nervous too, so there's nothing we can do to help each other. NO FUNNY IDEAS, people. sigh. i wasn't really paying attention and i could hear my heart beating sooo fast. so loud. but haha, mrs tan announced that kevin was going first, because he had inteview in RI. muahaha, he regrets even telling mrs tan. but too bad. muahaha.
放学了! we were let out 10 mins early. i didn't wanna go down for lunch so i stayed up at the hall. rach was kind to stay with me too. hee. so i studied my oral and found out that my autoraph book is being passed down in 6K but dono where. diaos. nvm, i think its with shiyin lah. so oral : chinese we got some teacher and mr kuah yipiao. and then for english we had mdm sim and some amateur: ms tng. hahaha
chinese: SHEESH. i wil flunk man. what i figured out is that at most i would get 43-44. and so did grace. hahaa. i don't laugh at this fact. i stumbled and repeated, and stumbled and repeated. so scary okay...there was this expectation i had and so got extra stress lorhs, so i was like comprehensive enuf but was not NOT fluent. sighh....
english: TONNES better. i mean i took it without stress at all. it was quite okay i feel. jd was commented very good. i wonder what was mine. mdm sim kept cutting in.....like what do you think they are feeling. so i was like trying to ignore because i would get to the point later. so it was like oh, i must promt you. hello, we have guidlines, it's written in black and white what we are suppose to do. it doesn't give the students a real mark on what their standard is with all the prompting. and oh, i detest that ms tng. she is an amateur for god sakes. she was like ticking away and listening to what mdm sim said. she didn't ask a question for any of us. sheesh. and she sat there with her palm on her cheek and elbow on her table, with this i-don't-bother kind of atttude. i tried looking at her, but she does not engage me, so what's the use. urgh.
i wonder how i should prepare my interview. someone remind me to certify my documents tmr.
ohh, and to practice napfa (it's wed!!!). and to find where my autograph book is.....
everything is superficial.
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::revolve:: / Friday, July 07, 2006
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Can someone listen/read my rantings? because, i don't know who i am now. it's so difficult to find, to know your emotions and who you really are. people don't tell you...who you are to them. how they perceive you. i mean, it's just difficult, okay, this thing called life. you try to make friends, but then, they turn so themselves, that they only care about themselves. not about the people around them. both parties are in the wrong okay. that whole thing about L. i know what she is like.......bossy, horrid, irritating and whatever. i detest her sometimes too. most of the times (whatever). but please! what's the use of trying to get rid of her and telling her we don't like her. i mean, bond people bond. we should try to understand what other's think.....L might not like us anyway. like just try to know okay. we don't have to change just to suit other's preferences. but it's good to know what they dislike about you and try to be a better person. jinyin is right. nobody actually understands one's true personality. the reallll side of someone. what is my real true side anyway? i mean, i try to act as normal as i can with people. but somehow, it just doesn't come out. the only way the seed can crack is when it is alone with someone they can trust. then it shows and portrays out her true beauty and her ugly side - bitter, sour, hard. ask yourself, have you ever ever done that. showed your true self to anyone. to lift your veil or just break through? the feeling is great, i believe. to really hear the wind gushing through your ears, blowing in your face. and the person you can trust sits beside you with a smile, just listening. just listening. you'll love this feeling i tell you. because you had already poured out all, all your sorrows to the person but it feels you've done it to the world. somehow, you feel carefree. free without any sorrows for the time being. free because you know there's someone there for you when you need it. well, have you done it before? because, someone should try. it's not as if i did it before, i could just imagine. well, i thought i did it. once. i'm not sure whether the person remembers. but i was the one listening i feel, and once i done that, i thought she smiled. and later on, i told her some stuff. not everything, but i thought she understood. my feelings and what's really in me. i think she did. probably she did, but it wasn't significant to her. it's just wonderful and utterly fabulous to have someone so dear to confide to. but there isn't much time....spending recesses just isn't enough. you must be that close even the heart links. i don't think is there yet. and she doesn't really think i'm the one she should confide to, even though....we are so alike in many ways and bond really really really well. i don't know. it should be a mutual support thing, i guess. she's really the greatest friend anyone can get. as long as you know her well enough. i don't think anybody thinks she is my best(est) friend though. it doesn't really matter anyway...i have many other bestest out there. 5-6. she would probably top the list. it's for me to know and you all to guess. keep on guessing and probably get the right answer, but i won't tell. anything. maybe she won't even know it's her. but that doesn't matter either. yes, and people, if you think it's you- just keep thinking it's you. you don't want me to dissapoint you, do you? but if you really think is you, i really appreciate it, because that means you know me more than the others. and if you are just pretending to think it's you...keep on dreaming. it will probably take a miracle to make it true, why? because i hate pretenders. and you should now (by now, at least). no use pretending, why? because you'll just cheat yourself, not me. i wouldn't even bother what you think about pretending okay??!ohh, and she didn't backstab me or anything for me to write this down. i just thought i should share what we should really do to bond with friends. that's all. good luck to all the best friends out there....she just doesn't know. it isn't the best relationship, but, i got it. she just haven't. i hope soon though. good luck GUESSING.
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::hsm:: / Wednesday, July 05, 2006
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